Fighting Amongst Yourself

Have you ever had a fight with yourself? I don’t mean taking yourself by the scruff of the neck and throwing yourself over the back of the sofa, more a fight within the confines of your own mind. I believe the technical term is ‘internal dialogue’, when the exchange is calm and productive, this is more of an ‘internal slanging match’. It’s as though your thoughts suddenly take against each other……

Usually it begins with a single, simple phrase that runs through your mind, dragging a negative, but all too willing, emotion along with it

“I can’t do this!”Β  says the Captain of team doubt, accompanied by Sergeant Anxiety.

“Of course you can, it’s a wonderful opportunity”

The Captain of team positive thinking takes centre stage flanked by a couple of pom pom waving cheer leaders from Camp self-esteem

“I can’t, it’s too much pressure, I know it’s going to be a disaster”

Team doubt have been joined by Fear (always a big player) and a couple of rejects from Camp self-esteem who were kicked out for ‘not playing well with others’.

“We’ve talked about this. You cannot know what will happen; let go of control and just go where life takes you”

cheerleadersTeam positive thinking have recruited self-confidence (who did not come willingly) The cheerleaders are busy chanting motivational quotes and trying to work out how to build a human pyramid with just the two of them.


“Oh bugger off you bloody hippy, what do you know about it”

The rejects from Camp self-esteem take this opportunity to wrestle the pom poms from the cheerleaders and start hitting self-confidence over the head with them; not an eager participant in the first place, he makes a run for it.

“I’m you, you blithering idiot!”

At this point both sides will realise what a nonsense their battle really is or they’ll both take serious offence and launch an all out attack on each other, which results in the owner of the warring thoughts having to lie down in a darkened room for a couple of days.

Viewing my inner dialogue scraps like this is the only way that I can keep them from drawing battle lines and really wrecking my life. Today, I enlisted the help of Common Sense who is currently standing in the middle of the two protagonists with his arms folded and a stern ‘don’t mess with me you bastards’ look on his face.

Why is all this necessary? Well, a couple of my closest friends have organised a surprise for me today.

“I don’t like surprises”

“How do you know, you don’t know what it is, that’s the point of surprises”

“Oh, sod off with your bloody logic, I know what I don’t like”

Sorry, guys, I need to go and give Common Sense a hand, they seem to be giving him a wedgie……..

See you later

Lisa x



  23 comments for “Fighting Amongst Yourself

  1. September 15, 2018 at 7:35 am

    Yup! Especially when it’s something I don’t wanna do, I HAVE to do 😦

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  2. September 15, 2018 at 7:48 am

    I think I wanted to join in the argument you were having with yourselves. To diminish my arguing aspects of self. I have what I call my ‘left shoulder goofy’ oh that just my left shoulder goofy – so can more easily be ignored. From a goofy cartoon I remembered with a devil on on should and a saint goofy on the other…

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    • September 15, 2018 at 7:51 am

      That is an awesome idea – can I borrow Goofy for the day Tim? xx

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      • September 15, 2018 at 7:54 am

        I’ll end up doing a post about it at some point (that’s how it seems to work πŸ™‚ ) but of course πŸ™‚
        the more left should goofy’s there are the better off we all are!

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      • September 16, 2018 at 5:11 am

        Look forward to reading that Tim 😊


      • September 16, 2018 at 5:20 am

        Now you’ve said that I have to do it, maybe you’ll forget πŸ™‚

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      • September 16, 2018 at 5:29 am

        Yep there’s a good chance to be honest πŸ˜‰ x

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  3. blindzanygirl
    September 15, 2018 at 8:31 am

    Oh LISA! This is absolutely BRILLIANT! And funny as well. AND I relate. I have this e ery day of my life. I didn’t used to, but do now, in my. Ew bodily state, as e erything now is a chalkenge to me. I jyst LOVE this. You should submit it somewhere. It should be PUBLISHED.

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    • September 16, 2018 at 5:15 am

      I’m so glad you liked it Lorraine. I’m sorry you have to fight like that every day my friend the fact that you write so brilliantly with constant brain fog is a real testament to your strength and courage. 😊 xxx

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  4. September 15, 2018 at 10:59 am

    Me and myself have daily dialogue. These days its mainly positive because I am concentrating on improving my wellbeing. Sometimes I have to tell myself not to be negative becaue that is of no advantage to me.

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  5. September 15, 2018 at 12:42 pm

    Lol welcome to the inside of my mind πŸ™‚

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  6. September 15, 2018 at 1:39 pm

    Oh this is so perfect, and sometimes it really does feel like it comes to actual fisticuffs. I have a little cleaning lady that I imagine coming in one ear with her broom and swishing it all out the other side. Sometimes she needs to come through a few times.

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  7. September 15, 2018 at 2:10 pm

    Ok, when did you implant a listening device inside my head?

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  8. September 15, 2018 at 4:14 pm

    I really should open my mind to let Common sense in, but I was worried there was no room in the war between my “good’ and “evil” combatants. I hope you enjoy your surprise Lisa

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    • September 16, 2018 at 5:25 am

      I find that common sense only makes rare guest appearances πŸ˜‰ unfortunately captain anxiety kicked the shit out of the cheerleaders and team positive pretty much fell apart after that so I had a terrible day but thanks for your good wishes anyway 😊 xxx


      • September 16, 2018 at 6:08 am

        :(… today is a new day…fire them all and do something you KNOW you will enjoy…just for you!

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      • September 16, 2018 at 6:33 am

        That’s an excellent plan and I will do just that, thank you :O) xx

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